kill-joy.

spitting out vicious, cruel words

trying to enforce guilty thoughts inside my head

like a bullet through the heart, a mile a minute.

it's as if you don't give a shit

you don't really give a fuck

about anyone else,

only but yourself.

selfish and ugly,

you should try holding a mirror up infront of your face.

mhmm, this is how i feel;

a monster staring back at me every day.

and here comes the walking tragedy,

put your shields on.

don't make eye contact.

oh, no.

here comes the rain

to wash all traces of your happiness away.

away, forever.

don't ever tell me again,

"are you ok?"
just because, you miss the way i was

before i became frozen and mute .

i can see right past your façade.

insecurities coming into full bloom.

i'm so sick of having to deal, with people.

i just want you to know.

this wasn't a ploy, this wasn't my choice.

i'm not going to apologize.

you're undeserving of my time.