giving up and down.

i don't know what it is

or why it is,

about how the rain never fails

to bring up unecessary shit to the surface.

it's been pretty fucking difficult,

trying not to punch holes in the ground.

while at the same time,

not letting myself succumb to,

the temptation of breaking down.

you could say it's mostly bittersweet thoughts

caused by the very image of you.

but i would just be digging the hole deeper

if i didn't say that,

you're only a small part of the actual pain.

through and through,

there's no easy way out.

there's no escaping you.

[ M U S I C #3 ]

unspoken.

goodnight now, world.

i am a witness to your down fall.

at that moment,

i was dragged down with you

left to fade in & out of conciousness

among the abandoned.

stand back against the wall,

and witness the down fall of every thing in sight.

this is how it's supposed to be.

colors bleeding through the skin.

i am a witness to your rising phoenix.